this past month felt like the LONGEST EVER; i didn’t even realize until i was thinking about what i did. the first week was: finishing up my ballet winter program, spending extra time with family, and meeting up with zelle of @fragilemyths !!
shortly after, i flew to orlando to do my first half marathon at disney world. i met my sister and we spent the week prior going through all the parks, running our toots off, then flying back to continue with life. it was the Most Exhausting week because amusement parks are really a different kind of energy!!! they’re so draining!!!!! and i didn’t train enough for my run so was slowly trekked through but you know WHAT i did the thing. people would ask me if i had a goal for the race and it was honestly just: finish. and since then, i really want to do another one even though i’m convinced i still don’t like running?? i can see the appeal of it though; i think i’m in denial.
the month of january was split into two parts: before the seventeen concert and after. i was a little worried prior to the show because: i only recognized 2/13 members, didn’t listen to allllll their songs (but most), and never been to a kpop concert (aside from rain when i was like seven). also, the friend i was originally going to go with bailed and i was very close to going alone. which is FINE but….. yeah. but it all worked out in the end!!! two of my friends said they’d come with me. they gave me a major crash course in the members. (bless them) i met emma of @staylovelys. i bopped and (almost) cried during the show. we got sweet potato fries after. i’m still stuck in the feels and certified SVT TRASH™ and not even mad about it.
lately, i’ve been feeling a little low and unmotivated. with the news of kobe bryant’s passing and the growing coronavirus plague, it’s hard to find hope in continuing. (not to be melodramatic) but!! i’m hoping and trying to get that to change!!! we can’t control things like death, but we can control what we do afterwards. the last few days of the month weren’t all bad. i met up with zelle (mentioned earlier) and breana of @milkyboos and was reminded how important it is to meet up with friends. they are truly the best!!
wooooo first month of 2020 done!! it’s actually been a pretty good month for me, despite the always weird transition from winter break back into the college routine. before coming back to school, i was able to actually be really productive during break (applied for internships, worked on blog posts, lowkey got my life together but not really lol, practiced photography, etc) and ALSO relax, which is pretty amazing imo.
since returning to school, i’ve been struggling a bit with sleep – no matter how long i sleep, i never actually feel rested. i’m going to work on establishing a more regular sleep schedule, so hopefully that helps. i also feel like i’ve been spending a loooot of money recently (although a lot of it is actually stuff i need), and it makes me feel really guilty. on the bright side, i’ve been able to cook a lot more often than last semester, so i feel like i’m on my way to being a functioning adult™!
some highlights of january, as told by my camera roll:
as you probably guessed, i’ve been listening to seventeen!! and like, only seventeen! i actually made two playlist post-concert, depending on my mood. also since the concert, i’ve had my filling of seventeen meme videos. consider me cultured.
in terms of books, i’m actually sorta reading again?! i read 5 books(!!) the past month and felt motivated/happy to get back into it. there’s something so refreshing about a good book that reaaaaally sucks you in. i’m surprised since i didn’t expect myself to have much time considering i was traveling/doing things/procrastinating. but i managed. it ended up being me reading instead of being responsible like sleeping/doing work but no regrets.
as usual, i haven’t been reading much. i read a total of one (1) book – everything i never told you by celeste ng. i was honestly a bit confused by this book, but i found all the characters really interesting, and i’m really into celeste ng’s writing style. i just love asian american authors (shoutout to subtle asian book club!!), and i definitely want to read more of them.
as for podcasts, i really liked this one episode from this incredible body podcast. this was actually the first episode from this podcast that i’ve listened to, but i found it really moving and inspiring. if you’ve been feeling stuck or lost or confused, definitely give it a listen! the host of the podcast asks some questions that are really helpful to think about, especially if you’re feeling scared about making a decision.
foresights of february
february!! there isn’t anything in particular planned. instead i have a few goals i’d like to focus on:
- prioritize your health
- water intake!!!
- eating patterns!!!!
- get back into blogging??? making consistent content
- do your schoolwork
february will be an interesting month….. definitely going to be a lot busier than january, since i’m starting an internship and classes will be picking up (yikes). i’m pretty interested in the classes i’m taking this semester, so i don’t think the work will be too bad, but i am a bit worried about managing my time with all of my commitments.
in terms of what i’m looking forward to, i’m hoping to learn a lot and establish healthier habits. this past week, i started taking walks again, and it’s been really good for me physically and mentally, so that’s definitely something i want to keep up! also, i’m really excited for orchesis rehearsals to start again, since dancing is just always so much fun :))