this post is going to be a little sentimental and a little motivational. after all, this is a letter to my future self. (inspired by a lovely video created by troye sivan)
i’m a firm believer in goal setting. if you don’t have a goal in mind, how are you going to get anywhere in life? sure i like being spontaneous and adventurous, but you can’t do that with life. you need to know where you’re going, and to me, that’s built up with goals – big goals, small goals, goals in general. that being said, i love making new year’s resolutions.
a new year is always refreshing. you have a clean sheet of paper before everything gets messy and confused – a clean sheet of paper to make things RIGHT. i’ll admit that most of the times things don’t get right, but it doesn’t hurt to try. the new year also makes me realize how fast time moves the older you get. and how i need to get my life together and i don’t really know what i’m doing. basically, it makes me have an existential crisis. but anyway, GOALS. and writing letters to my future self.
dear xan, circa 2017
the year is over and beginning yet again. i hope you’re proud of what you have and haven’t accomplished in the past 365 days. at least you made it this far! let’s start with the basics. did you take care of yourself this past year? wake up earlier, see the sun more often, run in the mornings? how’s your body? no injuries, hopefully, still able to dance, and in better shape, i presume. pleeaaaaase tell me you’ve improved your dancing and grew as an artist. if not, can you at least say that you’ve completed BBG – twice or thrice? you should’ve treated your body the same as you treat your lovely hardcovers.
it’s clear to me, even as your past self, that you’ll be reading a lot this year. after all, books are incredibly dear. i don’t care how many books you’ve read, but i hope you organized them all in a bookish spreadsheet. also, have you done a better job tackling your TBR – the physical books you already own? your bookshelf is already running out of space, so i hope you solved that problem: get an additional shelf or control your book buying habits.
those are the bookish things i hope you’ve accomplished, but what about the blogging ones? last year you managed to cross off five out of ten of your blogging goals, which really isn’t thaaaaaat bad. maybe it’s better that i’m expecting less from you this time. have you conquered some other unfathomable number in the stats? i’d set some solid goals, but blogging is much more than numbers and i’ll just go with the flow. aside from that, have you met any of your blogger friends in real life? did you go to YALLWEST? I NEED TO KNOW THAT I’VE MET SOME BLOGGING PEEPS.
tell me you went to YALLWEST, and tell me it’s because you FINALLY got your driver’s license (also persuading skills). but really, are you able to drive wherever in the world you’d like? like THE LIBRARY OR BOOKSTORE. along with YALLWEST, tell me you went to varna and helsinki for the international ballet competitions. i hope you can tell me you did well and that you made it to the final rounds. most importantly, i hope you make me proud because you’re growing and breathing and caring and living wholeheartedly. (it’s really not that difficult, but sometimes i set the bar too high – you should know better than anyone.)