farewell, november and december 2016!

I’M BACK FROM THE DEAD. two or three months ago, i wrote a post about overcoming the blogging slump and how i had “plans” on coming back from that, THEN proceeded to disappear. whoops. in my defense, i’ve been very busy with ~life~ and hardly had time to sit down and think, let alone read or blog or do other things (unfortunately). but i’m here! i’m back! and i’ll be sharing my adventures! i haven’t felt this excited to blog in a while so hopefully, i won’t be setting myself up for disappointment!

november was an exciting yet stressful month filled with last-minute performance preparations and adventures in different time zones. i mentioned this last time, but my ballet studio performed SWAN LAKE this year and i’m really proud with how everyone did! the rehearsals were brutal and the show went well and i just feel really nostalgic and sappy (sad/happy) about the whole ordeal.


the day after our intense show, i got up at 7am (8am?) to go to disneyland & california adventure with two of my friends (one of those friends being my sister but WHATEVER). i haven’t been in 7(???!) years and my friend reaaaaaaally wanted to go and we were done with the show so we’re FREE. it was kinda crazy because the weather was gloomy (rainy) and we tried to go to all the good rides, which meant we hardly stopped to eat, sit, drink water, or do any of the necessary human needs. but it was fun nonetheless. i’d do it again. ALSO, we got to ride on tower of terror before it closed down! that was probably my favorite ride. :”(

after our disney day, we (aka my family and i) packed our bags and flew to shanghai, china. (yeah, we really did not stop to breathe.) my sister and dad stayed for four to five days before flying home, but i stayed with my mom for another week. i was jet-lagged all the way until the day i flew home, and was jet-lagged when i got home because i finally switched my time zone. WONDERFUL. if you want to know more details about my adventures in shanghai, i have a vlog on my youtube if you want to check it out:

it was already mid-december by the time i got back and i was scrambling to get christmas gifts, sleep schedule, and MY LIFE back together. i started planning (and stressing) for 2017 events and… that’s basically it. my ballet studio also had a winter intesnive program for two weeks of intense training, which was tiring but also refreshing. for christmas, my sister flew back and all of us went to las vegas (family tradition-ish). we stayed at the venetian and i had a surprisingly fun time. i usually don’t like going to las vegas because of the intense smell of smoke, gambling, and intoxicated people, but i enjoyed myself this time around. 🙆🏻

read these months:

  • MILK & HONEY, by rupi kaur – ★★★★★
  • STILL LIFE WITH TORNADO, by a.s. king – ★★★
  • NICK AND NORAH’S INFINITE PLAYLIST, by rachel cohn & david levithan – ★★★★
  • LUCKY IN LOVE, by kasie west – ★★★★★

favorites

foresights of 2017 janurary

this month is a very big preperation for the coming two. i have a few ballet auditions on the weekends, but not much else planned. i’m hoping to follow through on my new year’s resolutions and get back to blogging, make some more videos, tidy my room, the usual. i’m also trying to get back into bullet journaling and maybe start cooking(?).

goals for this month:

  • keep your room tidy
  • stretch every day
  • take care of yourself

do you have any plans for janurary? let me know in the comments!

female-president

if you’re up to date about the politics of USA, you’d know that today is the presidential election! 🇺🇸 i’m going out and proudly voting for someone who’ll (hopefully!!!) become the first female president of the united states. it’ll be a symbolic moment; it’s one step closer to gender equality, and not just for my country, but for others as well. in celebration, i’d like to share five fictional females who i believe would be a great president. 🙌 (warning: may contain spoilers for the books selected!) (photos aren’t mine; click on image for source.)

macey mchenry from the gallagher girls series

president - gallagher girsl

#MCHENRYBAXTER2020

BONUS: rebecca baxter as vice president

macey was an obvious choice for me. daughter of the vice president AND (formerly??) dating the son of the (former?) president? she’s already in politics and can’t be better for the job. not to mention, she’s also a spy and has friends working in the CIA and other great political circles. macey is smart, bold, and demanding – all fantastic qualities for someone responsible for a country.

reyna avila ramirez arellano from the heroes of olympus series

president - reyna

#ARELLANOCHASE2020

BONUS: annabeth chase as vice president (can you IMAGINE?!!!?) (i think annabeth would be a good vp because she’s allowed to have a somewhat relaxed life with percy but also lead.)

reyna is already the preator of all greek demigods at camp jupiter. what difference would it be if she decided to rule the country? i feel like we’d never need to worry if the presidency were in her hands. she has all the leadership qualities one would need and more. but most importantly, reyna would protect our country at any cost.

tessa gray from the infernal devices series

president-tessa

#GRAYLIGHTWOOD2020

BONUS: isabelle lightwood as vice president (*screams*)

some say knowledge is power. i don’t think there is a female more knowledgeable than tessa. now it’s not necessarily because she’s super smart, but more so because she’s so experienced in life. having lived for a couple hundred years and experienced america in its early days, i think she’d have a good idea as to where the country and people should go.

hermione granger from the harry potter series

president-hermione

#GRANGERLOVEGOOD2020

BONUS: luna lovegood as vice president

following along with the ~knowledge~ thing, hermione would be an obvious choice. however, it’s a different type of knowledge than tessa; hermione is hardworking and just generally smart. she would bring a logical part to the plate, but also never lose sight of morals.

nina zenik from the six of crows duology

president-nina

#ZENIKGHAFA2020

BONUS: inej ghafa as vice president

nina is someone who doesn’t stop until she gets what she wants. the flame inside her burns bright, despite all the hardships she’s endured. and i think because she’s experienced so many things, it would be very beneficial to her as a leader. a leader shouldn’t be someone who speaks but doesn’t do; a leader should be someone who says, does, and also knows from personal experience. nina’s also very proud of her country so… it all works out.

emily from forever literary also did a post on characters who’d “break the glass ceiling!” but among my picks, who would you vote for as president? let me know in the comments!!

farewell, foresight, favorites

farewell, october

the majority of autumn is over and i still feel like i haven’t done anything worthwhile this year. GREAT. but not to be tooooooo pessimistic, this past month wasn’t that bad! i began taking kickboxing classes, which are so exhausting and fun; i began teaching at my ballet studio more often (hooray children); i started learning korean and chinese mandarin (reading/writing). i still don’t know what i’m doing with myself, but i feel like most people don’t. i’m learning to just ~roll with it~.

read this month:

crooked kingdom

so i only read one book this month, but in my defense, it was A REALLY GOOD BOOK. *commence book hangover* i also wanted to share a few things i found on the interwebs that i thought were 🙌. you need to check out all the things mentioned above because THEY ARE LIFE-CHANGING. although my blogging and reading game still isn’t strong, i’m learning to be more forgiving for myself.

on the blog

october favorites

foresights of november

i’m genuinely excited for november for a few reasons: 1/ our annual performance is in two weeks (SH!T) and 2/ i’m flying to shanghai and 3/ i’m voting in the US election! after watching rehearsals, i think our show this year will be our best yet. not only are the music and costumes beautiful, our dancing isn’t half bad. *pats self on back* but i’m still worried since i haven’t finished learning all the choreography yet… OH WELL. if you live in southern california, i’d be ecstatic if you could come watch me perform! show’s on november 19th at 7pm. <333333

swan-lake

part two of november excitement(!!!!!!!!!) is flying to shanghai, china! i haven’t been there since i was three years old, so i can’t wait to visit relatives i haven’t seen in FIFTEEN YEARS. in all honesty, i have no recollection of what china or shanghai is like so it’s like i’m visiting for the first time. :”) annnnnd in a few days, i’ll be visiting the voting ballots and proudly voting for the first time, in the most bizarre US election ever. (honestly, an orangutang is a presidential candidate; how is that even??????) this month is also nanowrimo and i’m kiiiiiinda tempted to give it a shot. i never really considered myself a writer (does blogging count?), so we’ll see how that goes.

goals for next month:

  • don’t explode!!!
  • that is all.

how was your october? do you have anything exciting plans for november? let me know in the comments!!

uppercase unboxing

uppercase october unboxing

last month, uppercase sent me their october box for an unboxing review and i finally got the chance to share it with you. here it is, in all its glory:




it included…

  • a signed spooky book (VASSA IN THE NIGHT, by sarah porter)
  • a cute set of magnetic bookmarks
  • a notebook
  • a sticker

my favorite aspect of this box is definitely the bookmarks. i like how you could write on them and add some personality to your reading experience. i’ve seen VASSA IN THE NIGHT floating around but thankfully didn’t get myself a copy until this box. it’s fitting for the time of year, but i honestly don’t think i’ll get to read it soon. (overwhelming TBRs are overwhelming.) the notebook is also a nice touch (love the illustrations!) and i feel like the 70s/80s punk theme has something to do with the book. overall, last month’s uppercase was a decent collection despite its few items.

have you tried any bookish subscription boxes? let me know in the comments!

blogging-slump

i often go through phases in my life. one time, i was obsessed with graphic design and photoshop; i’d often make fan edits of shows or books or anything, and stay up huddling over my computer. i was once obsessed with anime and fan fiction; you’d find me clutching my phone at 4am, crying over characters that didn’t exist, on plots that didn’t exist canon-ly either. (SIGH.) i do this often (echm monthly favorites are just monthly obsessions that i may or may not get over), and i’ll probably do this forever. but recently i began to question: was blogging just “a phase?” (and i think that is the REAL FEAR)

this blog always felt ~more than~ my other obsessions. it felt like something i could do with a purpose and not just a “waste of time,” as my parents would say. but when every post and all the things i believe i should be doing feel like a chore, i begin to question myself. i don’t want my blog to just be a phase (which, quite possibly, is the worst phrase to describe something you’re passionate about). so i decided to do what i usually do when i feel unsure or confused: blog about it.

i-am-ready-jongsuk

when i usually try to figure something out, i make a how-to blog post about it. (see: how to read when you’re a busy bee, how to cope with a book hangover, etc.) in a way, it’s my version of giving myself an assignment and figuring out how to teach it to myself. so although this post may not work for you, i sincerely hope it works for me. these past few months made me forget why i’m even here. the page views? the “popularity?” the god-forbid FREE BOOKS?! (one should never blog for free stuff, but that rant is for another post.) writing this post is a reminder that i’m blogging for myself. i’m writing because i have words to emit and thoughts to share and things to LET OUT. everything else is just perks. i think we, as creators, need to be reminded of this whenever we feel lost.

step one: find the problem and remember your purpose

are you feeling ~out of it~ because there’s no time to blog/read/do all the things? i usually see this during the autumn months. summer is over and vacations are over; there’s more time spent doing real-life duties and less time on “hobbies” like reading and blogging. if that’s the case, then time is your problem. but when you actually have time on your hands, you’re no longer in the mood or, you know, feelin’ it, then there’s an internal conflict. (ooooooo)

externally, i don’t think there can be much done. try your best to make means with the problem (ex: time) and wait for it to get break (ex: a break). but internally? it can be more complicating. the key to getting out of any funk is to remind yourself why you’re doing this. i think that’s the main reason why we lose track of ourselves. everyone is given 24 hours in a day, and i could be doing ANYTHING in that time. why am i spending it on making this blog post? and why am i NOT spending it on making this blog post?

step two: give yourself space… or throw yourself into the task

the way i see it, this can go in two very different directions. you can either ignore the task at hand, or force yourself to do the thing you need to do. sometimes it’s necessary to take a step back and do ~other things~ and maybe find other interests. if you feel like a weight has lifted off your shoulders, i believe that’s a sign you need to let go of the thing(s) that are holding you down. you can always pick it up again later if you feel the need.

if you’ve already taken a break and still feel like you gotta do this thing, then it’s time to throw yourself into the task. brainstorm posts, create deadlines, and do what you need to do. you may feel like you forgot how to blog (me); you may feel like your content is 💩 (me); but just remember: you’re not here to be perfect, you’re here to make progress. if there’s no momentum, MAKE momentum. the key is to make a decision. don’t hang onto something because you feel obligated to, and don’t force yourself into something you don’t want. *repeats vigeroulsy*

step three: be sure of yourself

i think the worst part of The Slump™ (or any slump) is the confusion, the awkward in between. you’re not sure what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, or what to do. you just feel OUT OF IT. once you openly decide to do something, you need to hold yourself accountable. ignoring the problem and leaving it for “later” does nothing. this applies to any slumps, not only blogging ones. whether you decided to stop the thing you’re doing or fling yourself into it, be confident in the choices you made. tell others of your plans to change. ask your friends to remind you. create something.

do you have any tips for when you feel out of it? please let me know in the comments!