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twenty-seventeen, as told by my camera library

December 31, 2017

hello!!!! i wanted to do a post sharing my favorite memories of the year (or something of the sort), but i couldn’t think of any good moments. it made me realize two things: 1) it was a terrible year for me haha, 2) most of the best moments are captured in everyday things. so, i present to you, 2017 in a nutshell – sorta:


in january, i was feeling motivated and excited – as most do with the new year. i had a few auditions, but i was mostly just excited to go to New York the next month for the remainder of them.


while in New York, i was hoping to get an apprenticeship with a ballet company (or something of the sort), but didn’t have much luck. there’d be 200 to 300 people auditioning for maybe one job offer, and often times directors would be looking for a certain “type:” someone tall, someone small. it wasn’t that bad, but mostly just tiring. it was also much colder than in Los Angeles (OBVIOUSLY) and i was overjoyed to experience a real winter. highlights: eating By Chloe, SNOW!!, lining up way too long for cookie dough, and watching too much Gilmore Girls


the rest of my auditions rounded up and i finally (finally!!) headed home! but before that, i met up with Willa from Willa’s Ramblings and Jess from Infinite Golden Floors!! i saw them at the Victoria Schwab event, and again later before i left. this month was better than the last, and i was actually glad to go home – despite my love for New York. before i left, i vlogged a bit and was snow very happy about the weather. :”) when i got back, my family got a new car (whoo!!) and i pierced my ears!

april and may

for some reason, things always slow down when i go home. april and may blurred together in a hazy mess. i was beginning to feel more and more tired and unproductive, unfortunately. BUT i started going to yoga more often, and fell in love with everything about it. in terms of the ~twirling pages world~, i was doing more things (echm giveaways, co-blogger applications, and more!). also, there were too many amazing books released at this time of year. (echm LORD OF SHADOWS). before i left, i also caught up with my friends over korean comfort food and other great things. :))


early in june, i returned to New York for a ballet summer program. i went a few weeks early and took open classes, explored the city, and watched way too many ballets at Lincoln Center. i also met up with Nikki (remember her?) while she was in the city! i also got some ice cream with Willa before our busy summer consumed us.


july was filled with long days dancing the city. for independence day, i went to the beach and enjoyed some reading, which was nice. i also got a chance to watch Balanchine’s Jewels for the first time and it’s now one of my favorite ballets I CRY. it’s probably because it was performed by some of the best ballet companies in the world and I’M STILL SHOOK. when i wasn’t dancing, i ate a lot of frozen fruit (via pressed juicery & chloe’s fruit), and experimented with other forms of activity (boxing and yoga). i also caught up with Jess one last time before the summer ended, and went to the Met Museum! even though i’ve been to NY many times, i’d never been to the Met before.


FINALLY!! home!! but nearly right after i got home, my family took a mini vacation to Las Vegas. there wasn’t really much to do for me, but it was fun to walk around and eat good food. the major thing of the month was that i’d decided to get bangs!!

september and october

with summer being over, i was slowly getting back into the swing of things. i started to cook more often – usually following recipes from High Carb Hannah. i also got a gym membership and tried exercising some more (it only worked for so long; still have the membership but.. yeah). most importantly, i got a new phone, the Google Pixel 2!! it made me more motivated to take pictures and like, live a little. rehearsals for The Nutcracker also began around this time.


november was mostly dedicated to Nutcracker lol. that is pretty much it. buuuuuuut i actually recapped that month/season. i was too overwhelmed the prior months but was starting to get out of my shell again.


ahhhh we’re finally here, aren’t we? i didn’t accomplish any of my goals for the month or the year, but i’m okay with that. i did more of the things i enjoy. i danced a lot, read more books than i have in a looong time, went to my favorite yoga classes, and met up with my favorite friends.

this past month i’ve been trying to be more forgiving. when i began writing this, i was certain there was nothing notable in the past twelve months. now i realize there are bits and pieces of 2017 i appreciate. if there was a word to summarize the year, i’d choose change. on the surface, it seems like nothing has changed; i still live with my parents, read books, and create internet things. i didn’t lose 20lbs, travel the world, or do anything too drastic. as i look back at the person i was in january, i realize that person was… so small. that person had so much to learn. as painful this year was for me, i’m eternally grateful.


how was your 2017? let me know in the comments!

Alexandra Ling

alexandra is a nineteen-year-old content creator and avid reader. when she's not on the internet or hiding behind pages, you can find her training to be a professional ballet dancer. she finds writing about herself in third-person strange.

  • Tiffany Chiang

    YAS XAN! Things may not have changed much, but you’re still growing as a person~ also i can spot all my bibimbaps in the pics LMAO

  • Love this post! I really like seeing all of these behind-the-scenes pictures (I’m really nosy, haha). It’s okay if things haven’t changed much – that doesn’t mean that YOU as a person haven’t grown! I hope you have an amazing 2018!

    • thank you!! and no worries; i love behind-the-scenes photos as well 🙂 i hope you have an amazing 2018 as well <33

  • This was such a nice post! It was lovely seeing all your photos. This year has been quite painful at times, but I think it’s turned me into a better, more confident person which is always good. I hope you have an amazing 2018!

  • glad you seem to have an amazing year xan ❤ nutcracker is my favorite ballet and watching it live is on my bucket list! 🙂 have an even more amazing 2018!❤

    • thanks, tasya! i hope you get a chance to watch The Nutcracker soon! it’s always fun to perform & see 🙂 have a wonderful 2018!

  • This is so cool to get an insight into your life through your camera roll! My 2017 started out pretty average, but it’s definitely got better as the years gone on! Here’s to a fabulous 2018!!

  • It’s so cool to look back on the year in pictures. Lovely post 🙂

  • Nikki Wang

    XAN HELLO I’M SO BAD AT KEEPING UP WITH MY FAVORITE BLOGS AHHH but this is so cute and I love it so much <3