i love writing letters – not typing letters but writing. putting a pen on paper and squiggle-ing stuff is somehow more authentic than clicking buttons to produce the same squiggles. is it because there’s no backspace to fall back on? sorry, you can’t erase the parts you don’t like anymore (i.e. spelling errors!!). but that’s also what makes it more real. the imperfections are still there and you can’t hide them; you don’t NEED to hide them, and instead, embrace them. and what better person to write letters to than yourself? everyone should write letters to themselves. we are our own best friends. (wow, i’m such a lonely introvert just let me hide in my cave and read bye)
but anyway, this is a letter from past me to future me. hey, xandra in 2018! i hope you’re doing well. here’s this thing i wrote for you.